"Just Coffee?"

 I've been twisting inside myself 

Keeping this secret 

Well not really a secret, more of a confession

A revelation if you will 

Another side of myself I have not yet exposed 

As many of us do, I have this innate fear of being judged 

Of being looked at a certain way 

And that eats away at my confidence 

And my self worth 

But above all things honesty is the one trait I value above all else 

Which is why I need to be honest with you 

There are two things I have not shown about myself 

Neither one of these changes who I am 

But could possibly affect how you see me 

And ultimately saying Hello over coffee! 

I don't know where this is going 

Or even what this is? 

I mean, it's intense and has happened so quickly 

My head is still spinning 

I don't know what you see, 

Or how come random texts have turned into full blown opening our souls up 

I should've stopped it before it snowballed 

Should've stepped back and just kept quiet 

Even now I'm thinking "Why are saying anything, it's just coffee!"

But what if it isn't 'just coffee' ?

I feel so very comfortable in your presence and yet we've not even been in the same room 

Have to admit, it's fucking with my head big time

But I'm trying not to analyse the shit out of it

If it's 'just coffee' then all of this is irrelevant

And my confession or my truths can be put to bed 

If it's just mates, with dinner and movie nights it's all good 

If it's a night out dancing, setting the world to rights as good friends 

That sounds perfect. 

Anything more, and I will bare my soul 

And let you decide then, if coffee and an axe are still on the table !!!

Is it just coffee?

Sally x