Tread Lightly

Tread lightly 
With my heart
For it is wounded and unstitched.

I'm holding my breath 
While holding your hand. 

In the dark,
I see you.
Feel your words of comfort 
Not yet knowing your touch
Your gaze
Your heart.

There's a  distance

It's safe

It's warm

It holds me close

Fences my heart in.

And yet,

I ache to be known.

To be seen

To be held

To be whole

Once more.

And yet,

Still I am afraid.

Of a truth,

Of knowing

Of letting go.

But I'm trying ❤️

 As hours tick by slowly

My heart it aches for you

Yearns for your soft, sweet words

Dreams of your scent,

Your arms 

The breath of your whispering tongue

Oh how I've missed you 

Longed for you 

Wanted you

Your touch 

Your lingering kiss 

Your mouth on mine 

Your tongue battling with my own 

The gravely tone in your voice as your need becomes ever apparent

Your need...

It's that I've missed 

And your adoring gaze 

Your commanding hands and demanding want 

3 days baby 

3 days! 

I love you

And I can't wait xx

Your words are never enough?
Are you crazy?

I've never felt so loved,
Adored, 
Wanted
Seen. 

I have waited and wanted you, 
I have dreamed and delighted in the thought of you,
What we have is beyond my imaginings,
Every happy ending,
Every story book romance,
Every chick flick love affair,
They all pale in comparison to the love you have showered on me. 

I struggle everyday to believe that you're real,
That you're mine,
That I get to keep you.
You are the light in my heart,
The life blood that ignites my soul
The fire that rages within every cell of my body

I yearn to be with you,
Around you,
Held by you,
Taken by you.
I want forever to be enveloped within your desire 
To be consumed with this unending need to just be next to you,

I crave your touch
The warmth of your smile
The kindness in your eyes, 
I long to be yours 
Not just in heart, body and spirit 
But in name also,
To be your wife,

To be legally yours,
For all the world to see 
Is a beautiful thought 
And one that makes my soul weep 
We are connected,
We are one
And I will ache for you until we are returned to one another 
My love,
My life,
My heart.


Forever yours
Xxxx

The agony of missing you

Is a tortuous place 

It's dark and foreboding

As it claws at my skin daily.

I not only know of you 

I now know you

In the truest sense 

Your thoughts 

Your dreams 

Your touch 

Your smell 

The deliciousness of  your lips on mine

The way you move inside me 

How your heart beats in time with my own 

Your loving touch 

On my aching skin

All of these things are reminders of what has been

What I have longed for 

And what we will return to again.

Forever yours baby xxx

 Like a teenager

That's how you have me..

Shy, lost for words

Laughing...

So much laughter

I think of your words..

Your over use of emojis lol

And I can't help myself

That grin is back..

It lights up my whole face

And yet I know there is a serious side to you

One I want to explore

Where the softness dissipates to vulnerability

That's where I want to get to

I want to know the inside out of you

Where you go when your mind drifts

What thoughts light up your eyes

What dreams you have yet to achieve 

What pain you have overcome 

And where you hide it now

I wanna see you

And be seen

Match

What have you done?

That cheeky smile

I couldn't swipe past

That inviting grin

Dammit

And look where you are!

Miles from me

But oh that smile

It reaches your eyes too..

Kind, deep soulful eyes

What have they seen?

And his words, 

Not just notes...

But conversations..

As if we were in the same room

Open

Smiling

And honest

God so honest...

I am drawn in

Distance seems irrelevant somehow

When chatter moves so freely

His passion for life

His work

Love of family

All things i hold dear to me 

I wait

For what seems like an age for each revelation and nuance of his life

He intrigues me

Excites me

Paints pictures of landscapes in my head that i want to touch

Explore

And share

Match

What have you done?

Time is irrelevant 

Except for when your absent 

Then time doth claw at my skin with talons so sharp 

He maketh my soul weep 

For when you are gone 

Time drips slowly by like treacle on ice cold silver 

This void is unending 

A big black chasm that seems to engulf my spirit 

I know you are not gone

But out of sight weighs heavy on my heart 

For its you that heats my sunlight

Opens my eyes each dawn 

And allows my soul to breathe 

You alone who's sweet lament chases all sorrows away 

Your carress 

Your hold 

Your kiss 

Your gaze,  

As you drink me in 

Anew, 

Each day 

Each moment 

Each brief intimate interlude 

Together creates this one great passion 

This overwhelming

Ridiculous 

Fantastically 

Wonderful  

Love. 

I see you.

Always xx