Empty

 There's a darkness where you were

A big chasm of stillness that threatens to envelope me

I'm struggling to understand 

What happened?

Where did you go?

what was said , unsaid?

Your love and emotion has kept me afloat for weeks 

Coaxing me out of the shadows to be blissfully sheltered by your design

But it's gone, all gone.

Not a single shred of you is left 

My phone erased you.

Quietened the twisted words and distorted feelings

All pictures, poems, songs shared...all gone

With a push of a button

Hours of exchange, contact, learning

Irradiated in minutes 

I ache for fill the space you created

This nothingness is deafening me

Clawing at my skin 

Begging me to stop 

But I can't

I'm tortured by your words

Your affirmations, your gifts, your time spent 

Scribbled messages, thoughtful cards..flowers

All seems meaningless and mute

My gaze saddens as I stare upon them now

Rereading lines and touching delicate flowers and tokens of love

Fuck...what happened here?

It's like a tornado has ripped through my life 

Thrown out all that is good

Now I'm a shell

A weeping , sorry , lost girl.

What have you done here?

Who did you become overnight?

To cut me from your heart so brutally and your life so definitely.

I don't understand