There's a darkness where you were
A big chasm of stillness that threatens to envelope me
I'm struggling to understand
What happened?
Where did you go?
what was said , unsaid?
Your love and emotion has kept me afloat for weeks
Coaxing me out of the shadows to be blissfully sheltered by your design
But it's gone, all gone.
Not a single shred of you is left
My phone erased you.
Quietened the twisted words and distorted feelings
All pictures, poems, songs shared...all gone
With a push of a button
Hours of exchange, contact, learning
Eradicated in minutes
I ache to fill the space you created
This nothingness is deafening me
Clawing at my skin
Begging me to stop
But I can't
I'm tortured by your words
Your affirmations, your gifts, your time spent
Scribbled messages, thoughtful cards..flowers
All seems meaningless and mute
My gaze saddens as I stare upon them now
Rereading lines and touching delicate flowers and tokens of love
Fuck...what happened here?
It's like a tornado has ripped through my life
Thrown out all that is good
Now I'm a shell
A weeping , sorry , lost girl.
What have we done here?
What happened so swiftly
To make you cut me from your heart so brutally and your life so definitely.
I don't understand
