Tuesday, 8 February 2022

I don't know where to go

 With my thoughts.

They are all over the place right now.

Standing back I can see the error of our beginnings 

It wasn't rational or logical or even conceivable

That we could sustain that level of heightened emotion 

Impossibley doomed before we began 


I'd like to go backwards 

Start again 

More gently, more mindfully 

Me with my broken heart  

You with your broken thoughts 

And nourish this magnetic pull we seem to have 

But in a way and a pace that fits us both 

However slow and chaotic that may be. 


Just don't let go. 

I can't shut my feelings off just like that 

I can't be shown the most impressive work of art in the gallery 

Then be told I can never lie my eyes on it or enjoy it ever again 

That is the cruellest joke of all 

Look what you could've had Sally.. 

Everything you ever wished for, wanted and didn't think you deserved 

All in one person 

But you can only keep them at arms length?

I'm not sure I can do that 

Not sure I'm strong  enough or even have the mind to 

We will see 


Miss you x







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