That moment is almost upon us

When fantasy becomes reality and we are face to face 

I have to be truthful and say, I go there often

Wandering weather my emotions can withstand the anticipation 

I've imagined your presence over and over 

As you lean into me 

And as your lips brush my cheek 

I inhale the scent of you 

And it's all so familiar 

Like coming home after a long absence 

You look at me with eyes so intently 

I feel giddy 

And serenely calm all at once 

I can feel the heat of your hand still touching my shoulder 

This moment is timeless 

Motionless even

We acknowledge one other 

And smile 

A sweet knowing smile that says 

'We were right...' 

You take my hand and whisper three words

"Hello My Sugar"

Xx

 The anticipation is palpable

It's like a burning hunger in my chest.

Will he look to me the same?

Or will he see me with new eyes 

Ones that are less adoring 

An English Rose he said 

I can't imagine that's how he sees me 

I'm just plain average 

Nothing more 

My kindness runs through me 

My heart, always on show

Arms always open 

Accepting

Forgiving  

These are my qualities

These keep me steady on my feet 

Grounded 

Humble 

I know my worth.

I know he sees me 

The light inside 

I know he seeks comfort in it's heat 

But is my shine bright enough 

Are my arms soft enough 

My mouth gentle enough 

It's my skin as silk as he imagined 

Is my carress  like velvet on his 

Does my breath dance against  his neck 

Forcing all abandonment  

And reason 

Does he give in 

Does he let go 

Do I? 

Chef 

Xx

 You 

Beside me .

Invite me 

Delight me 

Let me ignite thee. 

Let me play amongst your thoughts 

Let these lips touch your wanton soul

Let my tongue dance in and out of your curious attention 

Let these hands cool your fiery flesh 

Let me ease your rampant design

As I coil my ravenous thirst about you 

Drinking you in until I drown within your longing 

Let me touch you 

Taste you 

Feed on your hunger

To sate my own 

Let this devilment begin

 For the first time ever

 I feel like my words aren't wasted 

I wanna share all of my inner workings with you 

I want to lay bare all my hidden desire 

Crack open my emotional armour 

And allow you in 

I want to drown in your words as they carress pl every curve of my mind 

I no longer want to distort the pictures you create in my mind 

The warmth you place in my heart  

The devilment you entice in this spirit 

I want to lay down with you 

Watch the clouds go by 

And be still 

A silence where only two heartbeats echo 

Calling each other home

 Wow 

Another Goodnight- Morning!

I love sharing those with you 

I don't feel the need for sleep 

Just this deep unending thirst to know 

All your stories 

Your lines 

Your history 

All the large and small events that led you here 

Lying next to me 

But not next to me 

On the right 

To my left 

Fate? 

I think 

I hope so 

We will see x 

 Don't say those words to me

Don't drop feed this hunger

Then walk away from my table 

Don't paint pictures 

Share words 

Promises 

Then erase them 

With a smile 

Don't tip toe decadently through my twisted thoughts 

Don't go there 

Don't linger a little too long 

Don't give in 

Not yet 

Step back 

Breathe 

And start all over 

At the beginning 

From the start 

When words were playful 

And without meaning or design 

Without desire or need 

Without want 

Fuck please,

Without want 

Strip back everything 

Naked apparitions spiralling through me 

Bodies without faces 

Words without lips 

Promises without feeling 

Uncomplicate this soul 

Just breathe into me 

Unto me 

Over me

 God how your lines draw me in 

I've never been so affected 

So delighted 

And enticed into silence 

I am moved each time you share yourself 

Your thoughts 

Your soul 

Your design

I've only questioned once your truth 

But I have no need anymore 

I feel how your thoughts flow 

How they twist into poetry at my feet 

From your tongue 

Sweet sonnets of honesty rest upon my tortured skin 

Whispered promises, hushed by my doubting ears 

Cradle this questioning heart 

Are those words mine?

For Me? 

Freely given 

Without need for payment or reproach

Where have you been?

You sweet lamenting soul of a man 

Cover me with your unchaste emotion 

Drown me in endless conversation of future things

Take of this hand 

And show me 

Guide me 

Lead me 

Just show me