Two worlds

Roped together,

By chance,

By fate?

History, seemingly irrelevant 

As we coil around each others thoughts.

Pushing ever closer to touch

To feelings

And unchaste emotion.

A knowing,

As in a mirrored version of oneself,

Familiarity,

And yet all the excitement of this outside chance.

Minutes slip into hours,

Into days.

And yet there is noticeably no recognition of  discussion,

Or at least no defining detail.

Where do these moments go, 

How do they slide by without consequence?

Are we time blind....

What is it that has us bewitched into stretching the intervals of measurement?

What clock now defines our days?

I wait for your word,

As my lips give over to unsophisticated wonderment 

I trip over my expression in your company.

Naive,

As in years before,

All of this unfamiliar to my crushed soul.

Your touch,

So tempting,

Warm

And beguiling.

And yet,

So inaccessible,

For now.

That smile

 I see that smile in your eyes

And I know it's for me

I want to look at you

But your eyes see through to my soul

I feel so open

Full of raw emotion

Tentative and new

Yet so familiar

Your hand fits perfectly against my cheek

Your mouth  close against my own

Like our lips have returned to one another

Seeking that knowing

Forcing forward an all too remembered ache

My heart it knows you 

My skin alight at your touch 

Fiery torture invades my thoughts while I sleep

A gentle gnawing resides within me 

Which only your presence seems to quell

Hours tick by into days

And yet time has no boundaries

There's just a nothingness without your face

Your smile

Your whispered words

Come rescue this tortured soul

Glide into me

Fill me with all that you know

Hold me

Ease this want

Spare me this suffered silence

For its you I have waited for

Sally X

I think of you

My thoughts wander to you often

More than they should 

I find myself imagining your smile 

The one in your eyes

Hoping it's for me .

I imagine your hands, how they'd feel against my skin

How your whisper would feel upon my neck 

How your soft, sweet words would feel in my ear 

In person.

I want to hear the words so badly 

Want to see how your body reacts to me 

I want to hear you say my name again and again 

Curl into you, glide over you and envelope you completely with desire 

I ache for your touch

Constantly. 

But I'm so afraid 

Afraid to feel and let go 

Aware that this could all be one sided 

All in my head 

All my secret longings exposed 

But I can't back away 

God I want to hold you 

And be held 

All night 

And the following night...

I want to taste your hunger 

See if it matches my own 

I'm hoping it does.

Is this a thing ? 

Could we do this...

Is this just fantasy? 

I want it to be real 

I want to meet you 

More than ever.  

God I hope  you feel the same x

At dinner

 I just wanted to touch you, 

You were smiling at me 

And all I could think about was what your hand would feel like I'm mine

Dinner was a blur, 

I just wanted to be next to you 

And I couldn't in that scenario 

I wanted to talk 

And watch you listen 

And see your face when you spoke to me 

Watch that smile spread across your face when something playful was said 

I wanted to breathe in your scent 

And touch your skin with my lips 

Your mouth, your neck and every other part of you I had imagined devouring 

Knowing you're in a public place and having an ache slowly simmering away inside of you is deliciously wicked 

And fuck I wanted to be wicked! 

I wanted  to climb into your lap and whisper exactly how much I wanted you 

And have every part of me  writhe against you 

Coaxing your resistance to nothing 

I ached for your hands to caress my breasts,  kneeding them and me into submission 

I wanted to offer you my throat and have you taste the sweetness of my longing 

I wanted to disappear into the delirium of my sexual fantasy and take you right there with me!

In the rain

 You held me for the first time 

Our eyes met 

And that smile I'd been missing 

Just suddenly appeared.

It felt good to be in your arms 

You were suddenly real to me 

And you smelt so fuckin good 

I was just drinking you in 

And then you kissed me 

One small kiss 

Ever so subtle 

But strikingly overwhelming.

And now we had to go to dinner!!!

Back in my car, all I could think of was Fuck!!!!!!

Fuck..he kisses like that......what are his hands gonna feel like...

His skin against mine 

His voice in my ear?

My head was awash with a myriad of images 

Most of them semi-naked! 

I'd  wanted you all week, 

Fell in lust with that cheeky smile, that until now, I'd only heard,

Id replayed scenarios over and over 

Imagining different colourful scenes 

But never did I once picture that first Hello under an umbrella in the rain!

Xx

What did you do?

 Where did you go?

You were real, I know you were 

You said it! 

Did you seriously ghost me? 

Was all of that...

Those words, the music, the compliments the laughs 

Just for a fucking shag? 

Seriously...

All of that, those big feelings 

That emotion we struggled to contain 

Is that gone? 

Was it there? 

Fuck, I can't believe that you faked that? 

I don't want to believe that 

But what's the alternative? 

If those feelings were real and like mine all consuming 

You would have a massive void in your life right now 

I still feel your loss and it's almost two weeks with not a single word 

I can't believe you've just disappeared  

Cut me off 

Dropped me 

Fuck it 

What did you do?

7 days

 That's all it took.

Saturday last week I was in your arms 

You woke me 

Kissed me 

And slid into me all over again.

A week ago I was in your arms 

Your bed 

Under your skin 

For the first 

And now it seems, the last time 

I can't fathom it at all 

It felt too good 

And not just the physical 

Which was amazing 

But I'd fallen into your arms days before we met 

And that's where I wanted to stay 

It felt right 

Like home. 

7 days of crazy 

And now 7 days of almost silence 

It's an agony I'm not sure I'll get over 

To have that pull towards someone and then have to keep them at arms length 

It's not easy 

It's the cruellest request of all .

Id take a single text right now 

A phone call 

A hug 

Oh god you give the best hugs 

I was only in your arms a short while 

But how I miss them 

I miss you x