As hours tick by slowly

My heart it aches for you

Yearns for your soft, sweet words

Dreams of your scent,

Your arms 

The breath of your whispering tongue

Oh how I've missed you 

Longed for you 

Wanted you

Your touch 

Your lingering kiss 

Your mouth on mine 

Your tongue battling with my own 

The gravely tone in your voice as your need becomes ever apparent

Your need...

It's that I've missed 

And your adoring gaze 

Your commanding hands and demanding want 

3 days baby 

3 days! 

I love you

And I can't wait xx

Your words are never enough?
Are you crazy?

I've never felt so loved,
Adored, 
Wanted
Seen. 

I have waited and wanted you, 
I have dreamed and delighted in the thought of you,
What we have is beyond my imaginings,
Every happy ending,
Every story book romance,
Every chick flick love affair,
They all pale in comparison to the love you have showered on me. 

I struggle everyday to believe that you're real,
That you're mine,
That I get to keep you.
You are the light in my heart,
The life blood that ignites my soul
The fire that rages within every cell of my body

I yearn to be with you,
Around you,
Held by you,
Taken by you.
I want forever to be enveloped within your desire 
To be consumed with this unending need to just be next to you,

I crave your touch
The warmth of your smile
The kindness in your eyes, 
I long to be yours 
Not just in heart, body and spirit 
But in name also,
To be your wife,

To be legally yours,
For all the world to see 
Is a beautiful thought 
And one that makes my soul weep 
We are connected,
We are one
And I will ache for you until we are returned to one another 
My love,
My life,
My heart.


Forever yours
Xxxx

The agony of missing you

Is a tortuous place 

It's dark and foreboding

As it claws at my skin daily.

I not only know of you 

I now know you

In the truest sense 

Your thoughts 

Your dreams 

Your touch 

Your smell 

The deliciousness of  your lips on mine

The way you move inside me 

How your heart beats in time with my own 

Your loving touch 

On my aching skin

All of these things are reminders of what has been

What I have longed for 

And what we will return to again.

Forever yours baby xxx

 Like a teenager

That's how you have me..

Shy, lost for words

Laughing...

So much laughter

I think of your words..

Your over use of emojis lol

And I can't help myself

That grin is back..

It lights up my whole face

And yet I know there is a serious side to you

One I want to explore

Where the softness dissipates to vulnerability

That's where I want to get to

I want to know the inside out of you

Where you go when your mind drifts

What thoughts light up your eyes

What dreams you have yet to achieve 

What pain you have overcome 

And where you hide it now

I wanna see you

And be seen

Match

What have you done?

That cheeky smile

I couldn't swipe past

That inviting grin

Dammit

And look where you are!

Miles from me

But oh that smile

It reaches your eyes too..

Kind, deep soulful eyes

What have they seen?

And his words, 

Not just notes...

But conversations..

As if we were in the same room

Open

Smiling

And honest

God so honest...

I am drawn in

Distance seems irrelevant somehow

When chatter moves so freely

His passion for life

His work

Love of family

All things i hold dear to me 

I wait

For what seems like an age for each revelation and nuance of his life

He intrigues me

Excites me

Paints pictures of landscapes in my head that i want to touch

Explore

And share

Match

What have you done?

Time is irrelevant 

Except for when your absent 

Then time doth claw at my skin with talons so sharp 

He maketh my soul weep 

For when you are gone 

Time drips slowly by like treacle on ice cold silver 

This void is unending 

A big black chasm that seems to engulf my spirit 

I know you are not gone

But out of sight weighs heavy on my heart 

For its you that heats my sunlight

Opens my eyes each dawn 

And allows my soul to breathe 

You alone who's sweet lament chases all sorrows away 

Your carress 

Your hold 

Your kiss 

Your gaze,  

As you drink me in 

Anew, 

Each day 

Each moment 

Each brief intimate interlude 

Together creates this one great passion 

This overwhelming

Ridiculous 

Fantastically 

Wonderful  

Love. 

I see you.

Always xx

 I close my eyes and see you 

Feel you 

The touch of your lips against my neck 

Your breath against my ear 

A heated palm against my thigh. 

There's a fire raging within me 

A carnal thirst that is yet unsated 

I've waited for you 

Ached for this moment 

Revelled in the thought of your presence 

I've touched every part of you in dreams 

I've yearned for my body to submit to your every touch

I wait for the hour where two bodies intertwine finally as one 

Where the burning part of you finally finds me 

I already know the force of emotion it will bring 

Like the very first time 

Your body was made to fit mine in every line and detail 

How could I not be in awe of this final missing piece  

Excitement and wonder and sheer bliss surround my thoughts 

For I know you 

As you know me 

And this moment, like all the others before will be filled with agonising pleasure 

Loving adoration 

Joy and familiarity 

Because True Love is our compass 

And hand in hand we will share Love's Adventure  together 

I Lar you Baby ❤️

And the 

 That moment...when our eyes met 

Locked

And drank each other in 

When all those unspoken emotions 

Had bubbled to the surface 

Unchaste 

And eager to be revealed 

Eyes full of wonder 

Love 

Anticipation 

Want 

And 

Need 

My eyes burn with tears 

As I feel your soul reach out to me 

Your hands gently placed around my heart 

You're letting me in 

And I go to you 

Without question

Or restraint

With arms wide open 

Heart full of love  

Yearning for a chance to prove this outta worldly emotion 

I whisper those three words 

For they have been at the forefront of my mind for days 

Screaming to be released 

I Love You! 

Now all I feel is contentment

A warm, soft breeze washes over me as I lean into you 

Lean into Us 

That word so achingly  small 

But so very significant

Us!

Feels good doesn't it? ❤️

 That moment is almost upon us

When fantasy becomes reality and we are face to face 

I have to be truthful and say, I go there often

Wandering weather my emotions can withstand the anticipation 

I've imagined your presence over and over 

As you lean into me 

And as your lips brush my cheek 

I inhale the scent of you 

And it's all so familiar 

Like coming home after a long absence 

You look at me with eyes so intently 

I feel giddy 

And serenely calm all at once 

I can feel the heat of your hand still touching my shoulder 

This moment is timeless 

Motionless even

We acknowledge one other 

And smile 

A sweet knowing smile that says 

'We were right...' 

You take my hand and whisper three words

"Hello My Sugar"

Xx

 The anticipation is palpable

It's like a burning hunger in my chest.

Will he look to me the same?

Or will he see me with new eyes 

Ones that are less adoring 

An English Rose he said 

I can't imagine that's how he sees me 

I'm just plain average 

Nothing more 

My kindness runs through me 

My heart, always on show

Arms always open 

Accepting

Forgiving  

These are my qualities

These keep me steady on my feet 

Grounded 

Humble 

I know my worth.

I know he sees me 

The light inside 

I know he seeks comfort in it's heat 

But is my shine bright enough 

Are my arms soft enough 

My mouth gentle enough 

It's my skin as silk as he imagined 

Is my carress  like velvet on his 

Does my breath dance against  his neck 

Forcing all abandonment  

And reason 

Does he give in 

Does he let go 

Do I? 

Chef 

Xx

 You 

Beside me .

Invite me 

Delight me 

Let me ignite thee. 

Let me play amongst your thoughts 

Let these lips touch your wanton soul

Let my tongue dance in and out of your curious attention 

Let these hands cool your fiery flesh 

Let me ease your rampant design

As I coil my ravenous thirst about you 

Drinking you in until I drown within your longing 

Let me touch you 

Taste you 

Feed on your hunger

To sate my own 

Let this devilment begin

 For the first time ever

 I feel like my words aren't wasted 

I wanna share all of my inner workings with you 

I want to lay bare all my hidden desire 

Crack open my emotional armour 

And allow you in 

I want to drown in your words as they carress pl every curve of my mind 

I no longer want to distort the pictures you create in my mind 

The warmth you place in my heart  

The devilment you entice in this spirit 

I want to lay down with you 

Watch the clouds go by 

And be still 

A silence where only two heartbeats echo 

Calling each other home

 Wow 

Another Goodnight- Morning!

I love sharing those with you 

I don't feel the need for sleep 

Just this deep unending thirst to know 

All your stories 

Your lines 

Your history 

All the large and small events that led you here 

Lying next to me 

But not next to me 

On the right 

To my left 

Fate? 

I think 

I hope so 

We will see x 

 Don't say those words to me

Don't drop feed this hunger

Then walk away from my table 

Don't paint pictures 

Share words 

Promises 

Then erase them 

With a smile 

Don't tip toe decadently through my twisted thoughts 

Don't go there 

Don't linger a little too long 

Don't give in 

Not yet 

Step back 

Breathe 

And start all over 

At the beginning 

From the start 

When words were playful 

And without meaning or design 

Without desire or need 

Without want 

Fuck please,

Without want 

Strip back everything 

Naked apparitions spiralling through me 

Bodies without faces 

Words without lips 

Promises without feeling 

Uncomplicate this soul 

Just breathe into me 

Unto me 

Over me

 God how your lines draw me in 

I've never been so affected 

So delighted 

And enticed into silence 

I am moved each time you share yourself 

Your thoughts 

Your soul 

Your design

I've only questioned once your truth 

But I have no need anymore 

I feel how your thoughts flow 

How they twist into poetry at my feet 

From your tongue 

Sweet sonnets of honesty rest upon my tortured skin 

Whispered promises, hushed by my doubting ears 

Cradle this questioning heart 

Are those words mine?

For Me? 

Freely given 

Without need for payment or reproach

Where have you been?

You sweet lamenting soul of a man 

Cover me with your unchaste emotion 

Drown me in endless conversation of future things

Take of this hand 

And show me 

Guide me 

Lead me 

Just show me